I promise that this will be the end of the chocolate saga. And it really is not about chocolate it is about promises and obedience. I had promised two people I would not eat the kind of chocolate I shouldn't. So not only did I eat "forbidden fruit" I broke a promise which to be honest not only causes bottom pain but hurts my heart. Both of them are so incredibly caring and good to me that those promises should be sacred not merely a "bare bottom promise" said when my bottom is ablaze and smoke is still pouring off.
So, yes, I ended up getting three severe spankings in a row. One each night for three nights. I am one well punished young lady. And, yes, I do believe I deserved it. I can't imagine anyone who thinks differently. I am always amazed that they care enough to put up with my occasional silly, and sometimes serious, errors in judgement. But I view what they do as a gift of caring and concern. They both love me, albeit in different roles, but this is one way they show it. And one of my gifts of aftercare to them is the heartfelt thanks for taking the time to make sure I don't want to hurt myself again. When the spankings are in real life, I may get my bottom rubbed and lotion applied but I always give either one of them a back rub and all the cuddling they want.
So I now have a solemn promise to not do this again. I did get very ill and worried two caring gentlemen who were a long distance away and could do nothing but worry and then direct self spanking when I was well enough to handle it. This is going to be one tough promise to keep, chocolate is my downfall. Not my only one but by far the most difficult one to break.
When I spoke to my "older brother" tonight he assured me he totally believed I would never do this again. And why is he so sure? Because he knows I don't want the spanking I would get for not only eating chocolate but for breaking this particular promise. He is correct, I don't want it. I can think of lots more fun spankings to get. But there is another reason. And it is more important than avoiding a burning bottom. I am a woman of my word and always have been. I can't break this particular vow to the man I love and the brother I love.
Sometimes this lifestyle can be complicated but I wouldn't change it for anything.
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