Shop em and Drop em- conclusion

Laura stood at the door open mouthed as Rob marched next door bag in hand. She couldn't stand waiting to find out what would happen so she rushed after him arriving breathlessly at Liane and Allen's door as he did.

Rob rang the bell and looked at Laura sternly, "I think, young lady, that I will do the talking." Just as he finished speaking Allen opened the door. He smiled in greeting until he saw the thundercloud look on Rob's face and the desperate look on Lauras.

"Hey is everything alright you two, no one is hurt or anything," his concern was evident.

Rob took a deep breath and thrust the bag into Allen's hands. He explained the situation simply and briefly. Allen's good natured expression darkened as he called out Liane's name. Laura could feel her stomach fluttering and her palms sweating. She was completely torn about what to do. With her voice quavering she spoke softly to her husband, "Um Rob could I talk to you in private?" Rob turned to look at her just as Liane came up to the doorway.

"Oh hi there," she smiled disarmingly at Rob and Laura. But her smile faltered when she saw the bag in Allen's hands and the look on Allen's face. She immediately turned to Laura with a look of utter disbelief on her face. Laura shrugged her shoulders and shook her head. Liane turned to Allen knowing there was no way out.

Allen turned back to Rob and Laura, "I think you two better come in so we can settle this." Rob took Laura firmly by the arm and led her into the living room, following Allen who had Liane in tow. "Alright ladies I suggest you both sit down on that couch now", Allen spoke in a firm, no nonsense tone. The look on Rob's face and his arms folded over his chest also brooked no argument. Liane and Laura dropped down on the couch at almost the same moment.

Opening the bag Allen pulled out the sexy red panties, garter belt and bra, quickly followed by the long lavender gown. Rob looked from one woman to another, "Alright who do these belong to."

Liane immediately spoke up, "Those are mine, I bought them today. Allen I wanted to surprise you so I asked Laura to keep them at her house for me." Laura breathed out a sigh of relief.

Allen put all the items back in the bag. "Liane I told you that there was no extra spending this month with all the money we have budgeted for the holidays. What in the world made you think this was an acceptable idea. You didn't even discuss it with me. Well I can tell you one thing, all this goes back to the store tomorrow and you won't be sitting comfortably in the car either."

Looking at Allen with a slight desperate gaze Liane confessed, "Honey none of that can be returned, I bought it on sale. I thought you would love seeing me in them."

Laura tugged on Rob's shirt, "Honey don't you think we should go home."

The look on Rob's face turned thoughtful, "Laura I am giving you one chance to be totally honest. Does any of this belong to you? Did you buy anything at the store after I specifically told you not to? Is Liane covering for you?"

"Well, no none of that is mine, those are the things Liane bought." She hesitated as she looked at Allen and Rob and then at Liane. Liane shook her head indicating Laura should stick to her deception. But Laura had reached the end of the line, so to speak. "What I bought is hidden in our house." She dropped her head into her hands, she was so ashamed of herself.

"I see", Rob said quietly. He drew Allen to the side, spoke to him briefly and after Allen nodded in agreement spoke again, still quietly, "Go back to the house, get what you bought and bring it right back here Laura."

Laura sighed deeply, "Yes Rob", she returned to the house and withdrew her bag from the hiding place in the guest closet. When she returned to Allen and Liane's house she was shocked to find Liane in the lavender nightgown.

Rob held out his hand for Laura's bag, and looked inside. "Very pretty my dear, now you can take this lovely gown into the bathroom and change into it with nothing underneath."

"Can't we do this at home?" she asked pleadingly. Looking at Liane she could see on her face that there was no hope of that at all. Without waiting for an answer she went into the downstairs powder room and changed into the gown, putting all her clothes into the bag. When she emerged nervously from the bathroom, Allen and Rob were both standing in front of the couch where Liane sat with her head bowed. Oh are we in trouble, thought Laura. Both men were standing with their belts in their hands. Laura gasped, she had thought maybe a hairbrush but a punishment strapping?

Rob looked at Laura and pointed at the couch. She sat down quickly, thinking to herself it would be awhile before she sat comfortably for awhile. "You are both in a great deal of trouble for several reasons," Rob began.

"For one thing", Allen continued, "You both went out shopping after being told that both of our budgets could not handle additional purchases right now."

"And if that isn't enough you both plotted and lied together to keep this from both of us. Well since you schemed together you can be spanked together." Rob smacked his belt against his palm. Allen nodded in agreement. "Now ladies, stand up, turn around, pull those lovely gowns up over your bottoms, bend over, put your hands on the couch."

"Oh honey, you know I am sorry, I just so wanted to wear something pretty for you," Laura's eyes filled with tears.

"Yes but you are just a little too late with those feelings and after all you are wearing your pretty gown, aren't you"?

Allen also added, "Can either of you honestly say you don't deserve what you are about to get."

Laura and Liane looked at each other, neither one interested in telling any more lies. They both pulled their gowns up to their waists and bent over, grabbing onto the couch cushions. Liane whispered to Laura, "I am so sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen."

A quiet reassuring whisper from Laura, "I know, I brought this on myself, its not your fault."

Both women felt the straps brush against their backsides as their husbands prepared to lay on the first spanks. They were not only dreading the burning bottom, but each was so embarrassed to be exposed in front of a man that was not her husband.

Allen and Rob stood to the side of their wife, place a hand on her back, looked at each other, nodded and raised their arm for the first strap mark.

The women heard the swish before they felt the burn of the strap biting their tender skin. Both gasped in unison. Their could gauge their husband's ire by the feel of the strap. Before they had much time to think the straps began to rise and fall in rhythm as a lecture was interspersed.

"You are never to lie to us at any time is that clear," Rob said firmly.

Both voices wailed at once, "Yes oh yes". The strapping continued with enthusiasm.

"When you are told not to spend money you will not deceive us and go behind our back, is that clear", stated Allen.

This time there were many promises to never ever do it again, apologies issued forth as the straps continued punishing bright red bottoms. Tears feel freely and there were many pleas for mercy. However, both men were determined to teach an unforgetable lesson.

After approximately ten more swats, the girls had lost count long ago, both straps stopped in unison. All that could be heard was sobbing and sniffling as both women held their position waiting for permission to stand up.

Rob spoke first, "Ok Laura come here." She stood up, turned around and went into his arms sobbing on his shoulder. He rubbed her back, "I think we need to discuss this at home, don't you have something to say to Allen?"

Laura lifted her head, looked at Allen and wiped her eyes. "Allen I am truly sorry for drawing Liane into this and helping her try to hide what she bought."

Allen smiled at her, "Ok Laura, I can forgive that, we are all friends, just don't let it happen again."

Before Allen spoke again Liane spoke to Rob, "I also apologize for encouraging Laura to disobey you Rob." Liane also was forgiven with a smile from Rob and she turned back to be hugged by her husband who was also smoothing her hair as she cried.

Rob and Laura quietly left for their own home. When they got inside, Laura burst into tears anew. Rob walked her quietly into their bedroom. He laid down on the bed with her, drawing her tightly against him. "Shhh now Laura, you know all is forgiven and I know you won't forget this for awhile. I am afraid that was a pretty energetic strapping you won't soon forget sweetie."

She lifted her tear stained face to his, "I deserved it, I am truly sorry. I don't know why I did such a thing after you said not to and I certainly knew we had lots of holiday expenses coming up."

"Just remember love I don't refuse you things to be mean. Besides," and he smiled at her,"you are right, this is beautiful on you. I almost gave a thought to not punishing you."

"A good thought," Laura responded gingerly rubbing her well punished bottom.

Rob laughed and had Laura turn on her stomach. He pulled up her gown and poured some lotion from the bottle on the nightstand onto his hand. Slowly and gently he began rubbing the lotion onto well punished skin that was certainly not going to be only red but would be bruised. As he rubbed her bottom, Laura began to softly moan. Her legs spread slightly and he let his hand wander between them. As he thought, his sweet wife was overcoming the effects of her punishment mindset. For that matter so was he. Spanking Laura never failed to turn him on.

He stood next to the bed and began to take off his clothes. Laura turned on her side to watch him. Her tears had stopped and she looked at her husband with longing. She began to tug up her gown to take it off.

Rob leaned over and stayed her hand. "Oh no you don't young lady, that looks great on you and as long as its already here I intend to enjoy it. Good Lord you look sexy. You certainly paid the price for it, at the store and on your backside. You and Liane shopped for em, you dropped your pants for em, at least you should get some pleasure from them."

Laura smiled and sighed in satisfaction, Rob was always as good as his word and she knew she was forgiven. She might not be sitting for a day or two but lots of things could be done without sitting down. She intended to get full value for the sore bottom and the lovely gown.

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Hope you are all satisfied with the ending and thanks for all the comments and inspiration!

Amazing How Accurate It Is

Your Lucky Underwear is Purple

Dreamy and idealistic, you envision great things for your life. Your lucky purple underwear can make those dreams come true!You're a busy little butterfly. You have the most projects, interests, and friends of anyone you know. You also have a flair for the dramatic. Sometimes too much drama comes in to your life and brings things to a stop.If you want to focus more, and flutter less, put on your purple underpants. They'll help you get the important things done.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorisyourluckyunderwearquiz/">What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

Purple is most certainly my lucky and most favorite color so this quiz is right on target!! Part 3 on the continuing story tomorrow!! Hmm wonder what Laura is up to at the store.

Shop em and Drop em Part 3

Laura and Liane had a marvelous time at the store. The sale was even better than they had expected. And since they has gotten an early start the selection was still fantastic. Half the fun was trying on all the lovely garments. Both of them giggled as they rummaged through their full dressing rooms.

Up until the last moment Laura really believed she would obey Rob and just have some fun trying on the delicious items. But then she came on the very best one. It was a short purple and black print that opened on the sides and was held with black velvet ties. It was half the usual price and Laura absolutely knew Rob would love the way she looked in it. As she stood admiring herself in the mirror, Liane tapped on the door. Laura opened it part way so Liane could see what she was wearing, "Wow girlfriend, that is gorgeous. Oh don't tell me you are passing that up. Listen just hide it away and wait until after Christmas when Rob okays a little bit of shopping and tell him you picked it up then. Laura was truly torn. She hated telling lies to Rob but this was too good to pass up. Oh she should have stayed home that was for sure.

She looked at the armload Liane was holding. Her eyes opened wide. "Are you buying all that?"

"Oh you bet I am, this red set will be perfect for Christmas night and I do love this lavender gown. I'll meet you at the checkout counter." Looking at the uncertainty in Laura's eyes she smiled wickedly, "Cmon now don't be a chicken....In fact I dare you to buy it."

Laura burst out laughing, "Oh all right, I know the perfect hiding place, he'll never find it and I know he will absolutely love it when he sees it."

Both women checked out and headed for the car. Neither one wanted to be late getting home. Liane was also feeling a need to secret away her purchase until a more convenient time to break the news about her lovely attire.

As soon as Laura got home she headed upstairs to the guest bedroom. It was where she always put the gifts she bought for Rob. In the closet there was an upper shelf that couldn't be seen unless you stood on a stool. It was totally hidden in the darker part of the upper closet. She pushed the shopping bag with her gown all the way to the back next to a few Christmas presents she had already bought. When she finished she put the stool away and went downstairs for something to drink. She was sweating and very nervous. Suddenly she was really sorry she had gone shopping. Telling a lie was one thing but hanging on to your story for weeks was quite another. As she sat at the table she took out her checkbook to subtract her purchase. Instead of listing the store's name she simply put the initials. Not that Rob ever looked in her checkbook, he usually just asked for her balance so he could reconcile their joint account.

As she got up to start dinner she wondered why in the world she let herself get in messes like this. After all his request this morning had been more than reasonable. They did have lots of holiday purchases and she really didn't need a new gown. But the naughty voice in her other ear spoke up, "Now you didn't really buy that for yourself, you bought it for Rob, he is the one who will get pleasure out of it." Hmpf, Laura thought to herself, that is so true. It was a purely unselfish decision. She continued making dinner.

When Rob got home she met him at the door with a hug and kiss, she didn't make it too enthusiastic, she wanted him to think she was still disappointed about not being able to go shopping. Rob hugged her back and asked how her day was. Laura shrugged, "Oh just the usual, I got some straightening done, then did some work on the project I have to have ready for next week." Rob said nothing more until they sat down for dinner. Laura had made one of his favorite dinners and he smiled warmly and thanked her.

As they were eating Rob casually dropped his bombshell. He had waited until this point to see if Laura would explain on her own. "Laura, where were you today. I tried calling three times and you never answered. Were you that mad at me that you wouldn't pick up the phone?"

Laura's fork hung in midair. She couldn't believe she had forgotten to check the answering machine. "Wwwelll I went out for a little while with Liane," she stuttered. "Sorry I forgot to mention it."

Rob studied Laura's face for a moment. He knew her so well and she might have well written guilty on her forehead in big black letters. "I see and what did you and Liane do?"

At that moment Laura knew she was in big trouble. Big, over the knee, spanking trouble. Now her decision was whether to try and brave it out or tell the truth. As she hesitated the front doorbell rang. Grateful for the reprieve she hurried to answer it. There stood Liane out of breath. "You've got to help me" she whispered hurriedly. Allen saw the ad for the store we went to and told me it was a good thing I hadn't been out shopping today. Laura he'll set my butt on fire if finds out what I did." She shoved her package in to Laura's hands. "Here you hide this for me". Before Laura could protest Liane had taken off for her own house.

Laura stood there openmouthed. She turned around and there was Rob. "Now what was that little scene all about." He took the bag from Laura's hands and looked through it. There was a very stern look on his face. "Laura are these yours?"

With a great deal of gratitude for being able to answer honestly Laura shook her head, "No these are Liane's, she bought them while we were out today."

Rob shook his head, "No way are we going to be party to her telling lies to Allen, you march right over there and give them back to her, this is her problem to deal with. And if I know Allen she will also be dealing with the business end of a hairbrush."

Laura stood speechless. Rob grabbed the bag impatiently, "Fine I will take it over there and then you and I will discuss helping Liane lie."

As Rob stomped off next door Laura didn't know what to do. Would Liane keep her secret or tell? And she knew Rob was already upset that she helped Liane lie. Oh what a mess. She had a feeling the butterflies in her stomach were an absolute beginning of what was going to be a very painful night.

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Oh yes there will be two very sore backsides before this is over tomorrow. The only question is the one about honor among thieves (or liars). Will Liane tell or not?

Where I Find Them

Several comments have been left asking where I find my pictures that I use on my posts. Well the truth of the matter is that I am the queen of Google. Truly I type in what I am looking for and generally can find a few things. But you have to take off the security mode or you won't find the kind of spanking pics you are looking for. The drawback is you will also find some pictures you would just as soon not see.

I have gotten good results with "spanking artwork" and "spanking graphics". You can also be more specific and ask for certain holiday spankings.

Have fun!

Shop em and Drop em Part 2

Rob left for the office after kissing Laura and hugging her tight. He knew she was disappointed and he hated saying no but there were times she was just unrealistic about how much money was available. Laura's return kiss had been less than extraordinary and he could see the thunderclouds gathering in her eyes.

He lifted Laura's chin gently. "Now listen to me Laura, I am serious about this. Don't turn this into a discipline situation. Neither one of us want that. And I expect you to act like an adult and not sit around pouting all day." He kissed her forehead, "I do love you sweetie."

As the door closed behind Rob, Laura stomped her foot and crossed her arms. There in front of her on the table was the newspaper ad with beautiful panties, stockings, and all manner of lingerie at unbelievable prices and she couldn't buy a thing. It had been so long since she had bought anything pretty that this just seemed narrow minded and unfair.

She couldn't see how childish her face looked as she went about straightening the kitchen. Her lips were in a full pout and her brow was furrowed. The back door opened and her next door neighbor Liane came in. "Well good grief Laura, who gave you lemon juice to drink?" Liane laughed at the look on her friend's usually smiling face. "Hey can I have a cup of coffee?"

Laura went to get a coffee for Liane who sat down at the kitchen table. As she waited she looked at the two page ad that had destroyed Laura's mood. "Wow what a sale. Hey give me that coffee, we have shopping to do." A coffee mug landed hard enough to splash slightly in front of Liane. She jumped slightly, "Hey girlfriend, what did I do?"

With a thump Laura sat down across from Liane and propped her chin on her hands. "Rob told me I can't go shopping, its too close to the holidays. I am going to miss the biggest sale of the year."

Liane sipped her coffee and smiled, "Well what Rob doesn't know won't hurt him. We just go shopping, buy a few things and you squirrel them away until after the holidays. Sort of like getting yourself a present. Why I think you deserve it. You work at home and outside the home. Give yourself a break."

Tipping her head to the said Laura's deep brown eyes became even darker as she considered the possibility. She didn't like telling her husband lies but after all she wouldn't be telling him anything. In fact if she pouted just a little bit during the evening he wouldn't suspect a thing. Not enough pouting to upset him or annoy him, just enough to let him know she had not gone shopping. She straightened in her chair forgetting everything but how much she wanted some new panties and maybe a really sexy nightgown. She never even gave thought to how she would ever be able to wear them even after the holiday. Where would Rob think they had come from? She smacked her hand on the table, "Now why didn't I think of that? Finish that coffee Liane, we have work to do."

The grin on Liane's face would have rivaled the Cheshire Cat. "I'm ready, let's go!"

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Ok friends what do you think will happen next?

1. Laura will stick to her plan and hide her purchases, but pout slightly to eliminate suspicion.

2. Laura will get to the store, think better of it and not buy anything.

3. Laura will buy something that she can't resist wearing for Rob and tries to find a reason she has a new gown.

4. Rob will find hidden treasure when he gets home from work.

5. Some other idea you may have.

Please leave comments and I will post the next part tomorrow. I don't know about anyone else but I am having fun.

Shop em and Drop em

Laura sat at the kitchen table finishing her morning coffee and her eyebrows drawn together in a frown. Her morning had started out with an arguement and, as usual, she had lost. There were wonderful specials listed at her favorite lingerie store and she was sure her husband, Rob, would agree that new lingerie was just what she needed. Her instinct was way off base. Rob had looked over his coffee at her and shook his head gently, "Honey we have to watch our money right now, its holiday time and I have seen the size of our shopping list. No, sweetie I am afraid its out of the question." He smiled wickedly, "Besides I like you better out of your lingerie."

Laura had not even smiled at the joke but she knew better than to turn it into a full fledged arguement. Those usually ended up very unpleasantly, at least for her.

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Alright tomorrow I will post the next part of the story. Please leave a comment telling me what you think Laura will do next.

1. Will she pout all day and then take it out on her husband
2. Will she go out shopping but think better of it and come home empty handed
3. Will she go out and buy something she thinks will knock her husband's socks off.
4. Some other plan I have not thought of.
After I read the comments I will write the next section. Help me decide what Laura will do.

Thanksgiving Sayings

Thanksgiving Wishes

Thanksgiving Wishes
There is nothing like Thanksgiving. A day to be grateful for all we have, for friends and family far and near. All that we have that makes our lives rich and worthwhile. So as we gobble turkey,eat heaps of stuffing, and pumpkin pie.
Don’t forget the most sacred of all Thanksgiving needs and desires.
Remember wooden spoons don’t just stir gravy.
Spatulas are not just for serving up pie
Bread boards have an impact on more than grains
And those Pilgrim black belts did more than hold up pants




Anyone reading this is sure to agree
That no Thanksgiving would be complete
Without someone having a well roasted seat
Now I hate to be selfish but as far as I can see
This year that someone ought to be me
So sweetie I promise wonderful treats galore
Just be sure to give me what I adore
Flip up my apron, choose your own toy
Let me know what happens if I am too coy
I’ll tease and I’ll brat, I promise to play
Just make sure my backside relishes the day.
I assure you its tradition, if not we can start one
The warmth and the tingle in each happy bun.
And the best part of all, in my happy way
I get to celebrate for more than one day.
While others eat leftovers turkey galore,
My bottom will be quite red and sore.
Happy Thanksgiving to one and all
Especially to the one who answers this call!

Wow, guess who I am

You are Bettie Page

Girl next door with a wild streakYou're a famous beauty - with unique lookAnd the people like you are cultish about it

What Famous Pinup Are You?

The results of this quiz blew me away. First of all I think she is quite amazing and certainly well known in the spanko world. Just for the record I really look nothing like her but I feel pretty good about the results of this quiz. Now if I could just get spanked as often as she did.

Nonsensical Spanking Moments

Just thought I would throw out a few comments that often take place during spankings but really don't make much sense at all. Keep in mind I don't expect any of these to disappear in the near future, they are just too much a part of the tradition

• For example, the lovely lady with the dire threat that heads this post.I am going to whip you into shape.

Now how in the world is a whip going to change the shape of someone. More than likely it will whip you out of shape since you will since you will be ducking, dodging, or huddling on the ground in a ball trying to avoid the whip that is supposed to improve your shape

• Of course it hurts, spankings are supposed to hurt

Duh! We already know that. The only reason we yell it hurts is that if we yell what we may be thinking it will hurt a whole lot more.

• This will hurt me a lot more than it hurts you.

Ok I will get to this one when I stop laughing.

• I am speaking to you young (lady or man)

Now I am actually not complaining about this. I am 56 and when I am getting spanked is the only time anyone thinks I am young. But you must admit it is certainly a strange way to address someone my age.

• Come over here, we are having a discussion

Now in my opinion the spanker should be spanked for telling fibs. Somehow this never means the kind of discussion where people talk sensibly about a subject. This discussions is usually the spanker addressing your backside as he spanks it and you agree or admit to just about anything.

• Are you ever going to do this again?

Since this comment usually comes towards the end of the spanking what fool is going to say, "OH yes I plan to do it again next Friday, lets get it on the calendar."

• You need a good old fashioned spanking

Oh really and if it is old fashioned what is that lexan paddle doing in your hand.

• Do you deserve this spanking

Talk about a loaded question. Of course the expected answer is Yes Sir or Maam or just yes of course I do. Any other answer will keep the spanking going on even longer without even the chance to explain why you believe you don't deserve it.

• Is this what happens to bad girls/boys

Well evidently yes it is. Otherwise my butt would not be burning.

For the time being, these are the ones that have occured to me. But of course there is always the question, "Are you enjoying this?". Now depending on the situation I will gasp out one of two answers.

1. No, I swear I will never do it again

2. Oh God yes, harder, please

And please consider the fact that all this was written with a big grin on my face.

So Bad I'm Good

Oh he does love when I am bad. Although he insists on the word naughty. I personally don't care what he calls it as long as it gets the desired results. No, I am not talking about punishment. I am lucky enough to be in love with a man that loves to tease and be teased. And my teasing him gets me exactly what I want.

Oh the dire warnings about how I had better stop right now. Comments about what a very naughty young lady I am. Better stop now or you will be sorry.

Sorry, hmm. I don't think so. Now I am sure I won't be sorry. Don't get me wrong I look all wide eyed innocence as I protest that it was just a little harmless teasing. Its all part of the dance you know. And for this one he takes the lead.

I quiver with anticipation waiting to see where I will be, over what, spanked with what. My body also knows there will be a great deal of rubbing, caressing, touching in other more sensual ways with implements. I will be tormented until I can barely hold still. Horrible and delicious torment that I can hardly stand and never want to stop.

What is truly amazing is that a spanking of the intensity that would leave me in tears if given as punishment, has me gasping and moaning in delight when given as part of sensual play.

Of course I truly can't give out too many details at that point, since I am often lost to the moment at that point. My mind is not in punishment mindset, oh no, it is totally set to exquisite pleasure.

Yes, he is in control but I wouldn't want it any other way. And not only that, but a lovely tingle the next morning every time I sit down to remind me of what a wonderful night I had.

Hell yeah, I'm bad....and boy does it pay off!

After the Dust Settles

Well, as I talked about in my last blog I knew I would have to pay the price for the careless behavior I used concerning my finances. I appreciated the supportive comments and, yes, I wish they didn't have to be long distance spankings but I might have to wait months in that case. That's just a little too much anxiety. I mean I know a little is very effective but months worth...I would be crawling the walls, biting my nails, and probably getting myself into more trouble with that awful substance..chocolate.

So I got spanked last night and this morning. Both my partner and my "older brother" felt a need to let me know I was definitely in the wrong. I have to say that I never feel angry about getting spanked for discipline. Maybe its because they do it with so much love and care. But I never feel a grudge. In fact, other than the obvious pain in my posterior, I feel grateful, loved, and cared about. That's just me and that is the way I have always felt when someone cares enough to discipline me to help me do a better job of managing aspects of my life and getting rid of the guilt when I don't.

Unfortunately this is not the first time this problem has occured so the spanking was necessarily more severe. Actually both spankings were more severe. I was soundly paddled both last night and this morning. (And I do mean soundly). I had to apply Ben Gay so it felt like I was being spanked from the inside out. I was also strapped and had to use my small lexan cane on myself. If anyone thinks sitting is easy today, well you are not in this lifestyle.

But there is an upside to all this as there always is. I am always forgiven and reassured I am loved. Even though the hugs take place over the phone and/or computer they are so freely given. It gives me a chance to cry and purge those horrible guilty feelings. And both of these wonderful men then tell me we will go on to solve the problem, which they are willing to help me work out.

What more could I ask for? Love, care, understanding, help, discipline, and the understanding that they will always be there. It amazes me that this is the case. This is not what I experienced growing up. Yes, it is a big mess I made. Yes, it will take some time to clean up. But, no, I have not been deserted, there are loving, caring people on my side. Granted it was my backside last night and this morning but I did remember to thank them for that as well. No I am not crazy, I always thank those who demonstrate their love and care.

So to those of you who took time to write supportive comments, thank you as well. I do appreciate it. Real life is much better, but this is better than what I used to have.....nothing.

Wish This Was Fiction

Boy oh boy I wish this blog was a fictional story. But its not. My finances are screwed up again but good. At this point in my life I live on disability which is extremely difficult. Medicaid is supposed to pay for co pays my private insurance doesn't cover but they are not for some reason right now.

And, even though it was ill advised, I have loaned money to someone else who has not paid it back yet. However, regardless of this my bills must be paid as everyone's are. And I am not one to blame others for my mistakes. If I make a mess I clean it up and then pay the price. I have a feeling I am going to be paying an awfully big price for this one and it won't just be in bank charges.

Now you might think I am complaining about the punishment I know will be coming and I know I deserve. This is one of the issues I am accountable for. No, you won't hear any complaints from me about that. I deserve it, whatever it turns out to be.

Here is the hard part. I have to self administer this. I hate that. As far as I am concerned there is nothing worse than giving yourself the spanking you are told to give. It just isn't the same thing. Yes, I do it as best I can and I always end up with a very sore backside. Yes, I am always forgiven and reassured I am loved and cared about. But when I hang up the phone or get off the computer there is, ultimately, no one here. Well, the cats are here but, as much as I love them, its just not the same.

I don't know, maybe it is a better punishment for what I have done. Maybe having to do something that I hate so much is what I deserve. However, it sure doesn't feel like the better option. I need to see the look on his face before and after. I have a wonderful imagination and can imagine being hugged and held but its just not the same no matter how hard I work to make it feel real.

So once again I am in the financial lion's den and yes, I do deserve punishment, that is not in question at all. But oh I do wish it were in "real life". Letting yourself give into what you need is very difficult when you are the person administering it.

It does occur to me at these times, that this can be a difficult lifestyle to keep working. However, I intend to try no matter what. But right now I would like to crawl under the blankets and sleep for about a year.

With Love to Each and Every Vet

There are many veterans among my family and friends as well as my son's friends. So regardless of your political affiliations and beliefs I do hope you will take a moment today to think about those men and women who serve our country in the armed services. They deserve our respect and our pride in them as selfless human beings.

No, this is not a political forum and this has nothing to do with spanking but I do believe its important for all of us to let them know they are cared about and appreciated.

Being a former(and current hippie)I remember what happened to the Vets that came back from Viet Nam. We treated them shamefully and I certainly hope that never gets repeated again.

Blessings to each and every one now, in the past, and in the future. Thank you for all you do and the sacrifices you make.

A Lovely Side Effect

I consider this an appropriate smiley face for this particular blog. In fact I wish I had one of these.
I want to share one of the loveliest side effects of the recent party I attended. Now I certainly knew I would meet very fine people of like mind and belief. What I didn't realize is that friendships would form so quickly.
Truly I am delighted to tell you that I have been contacted by email, IM, and phone by those people who were just names on a post before and now I can't wait until I have a chance to see them again. An internet friend once told me that the reason we are all so open and share with each other is we know we will never meet. I didn't believe it then and I don't now.
And I am not just looking forward to spanking and being spanked (although that's pretty good too!!). I am looking forward to sitting down at a meal and talking, sitting at tables in the afternoon and discussing how our lives are progressing and how everyone's health is. I am looking forward to going to the pool and hot tub with other group members. Inotherwords I am looking forward to the pleasure of their company.
So for any of you considering a party don't rule it out for any reason. Even if you spank only with your partner. There are couples who attend parties that live this kind of lifestyle and attend parties to meet and greet old friends. I can't tell you how wonderful it is to be with people who are of the same mindset as you are. Their lifestyle may not match yours exactly, but no one really judges anyone else. And if they do they find themselves without much company.
I really have nothing negative to say about it except the time was too short and went way too fast.

Where to find Part 2

Just a quick note. Because I wrote part 2 of Caryn and Alexander it posted in October. So it is right after part 1. I finished it tonight but didn't get the date changed. I believe it is October 17th. Sorry about that.

Corner Time-Bah Humbug!!

Now maybe cats are willing to put up with this but I think it is the silliest idea in the world. Yes, if I am ordered into the corner by someone I have agreed to have discipline me, I will go. But that will probably be the last time he disciplines me unless we can come to an agreement about this. I know I sound like a terrible submissive but I really believe that discipline is about caring and compassion. It is loving. You don't send someone you love away from you when they are being disciplined. I truly believe you hold them close and let them know how well loved they are.

I truly believe that a good lecture serves the purpose most give for pre spanking corner time. They tell you that it gives you time to comtemplate what you have done. Believe me when I am hearing that strict, quiet voice lecturing me and questioning me on my behavior I am totally focused on what I did. In fact, I usually start to tear up about this point.

As far as post spanking corner time goes, once you are spanked and forgiven, why would you need to be in a corner. Where you need to be is in some one's arms who gives a damn about you and what happens to you. No, its not always a sexual relationship, but there is nothing wrong with affection between a mentor and mentee.

Now, as a switch, I am no hypocrite, I don't put anyone in a corner except for two situations. One is if they tell me they really feel its an important part of the discipline mind set for them, then I give them time in the corner before spanking them. The other situation I have never had to use. Since I am 5'3" tall, the men I have disciplined have all been quite a bit taller than me. I always tell them WAY before the fact that if they try to get away or fight with me, they will find themselves in the corner being paddled. Of course that paddling would be in addition to any discipline they had coming. No one has ever pushed to see if I meant it.

The only other time I even consider corners is for scenes or role plays but that is for another post. Right now I have a story to finish for a very important person and the second part of Caryn and Alexander's evening adventure for all the important people here.

Never Again

I have spent a great deal of my adult life looking for love. And as the song says, in all the wrong places. The men I met were needy and I was sure I could make their lives better and fix everything that was wrong. I expended a tremendous amount of energy doing this. At the same time I was ignoring what was in need of repair in my life.
I have learned that you cannot fix anyone else. This is something they must be motivated to do on their own. You can be there to support and love them through difficult times, but, as much as you want to, you cannot make it "all better".
I also learned that I was looking for the other half of me. What I did not realize is that each of us is a complete person just the way we are. We are all beautiful, talented, and loveable for who we are. That fact escaped me for a long time. Now I understand that what I needed was a partner in life. Someone to share all of it, good and bad. I am fortunate enough to have found that.
Don't waste your time on someone who is not willing to work on their problems and is expecting you to do it all. It just isn't possible. As much as it may hurt that is a definite signal to move on. This short poem is an expression of the knowledge I FINALLY gained (boy it took a long time). But then again , anything worth having is worth waiting for.

Never, Ever
Never again will I feel unloved.
Never again will I feel hopeless
I tried to win your love,
I always lost.
All I felt was tired and sad.
Never again will thoughts of you trouble me.
Now I can surrender myself
to someone who understands.
I can feel hopeful, energetic, and loved.

I Miss the Safety of Your Hands

I so miss the man in my life. We don't get to see each other in real life very often. I always feel so safe and cared for when I am with him. Yes, we switch but that doesn't change the fact that he cares about me and for me. I return the favor.

My most fervent wish is to spend the rest of my life with him, holding him, being touched by him, laughing and talking together. But most of all pledging my obedience to him. He already knows this but somehow I know it will be different when we are truly together.

Yes, I am a romantic, and a hopeless one at that. Totally incurable with no wish to be cured. My time spent talking with him each night is the high point of the day and evening.

I am a lucky woman. Blessed with very good friends in and out of the lifestyle. My son who is the true light in my life. My younger brother and sister as well as nieces and nephews. An adopted "older brother" who is always there for me and keeps me in line.

But at night, in the dark, I cuddle with my cats and can "feel" loving hands rubbing my back and holding me close. OH thank God for imagination! And for enough silliness not to let anyone talk me out of my belief that it might all work out. Someday those hands may be there every day and every night to keep me safe and warm. We will be there to keep each other in line and provide the love we both need so much.

The Stinging Light of Wisdom and Many Thanks

Yes this is so true. I know I often feel quite enlightened when my bottom has been lit up. Certain subjects suddenly reveal themselves in stunning clarity. For example, when my bottom is burning it would never occur to me that chocolate even tastes good. After five minuites with a hairbrush why I can clearly see why I must go to the Dr. When I hear discussions prefaced with young lady I suddenly realize the error of my ways.

Now all I have to do is figure out how to keep that light from burning out and leaving me in the darkness of being stubborn and disobeying. I will let you know what I come up with.

I also want to thank PK for putting my story up for Fantasy Friday. I certainly hope you all enjoyed it. I loved writing it. And I did appreciate the comments left at New Beginnings about the story.

I promise to finish up the story of Caryn and Alexander that I left hanging at part 1. I definitely should be spanked for that. Any volunteers?!

The Gangs All Here

Before I left for Chicago and the party of a lifetime, I was really ambivalent about being bare bottom spanked in front of other party goers. On one hand it was a new experience and I do love new spanking experiences. On the other hand I wasn't sure I liked all those people seem my bare bottom since I am not crazy about how my body looks anyway. And of course, there was simply whether or not I was alright with others witnessing an intimate act. Now I am not discussing sex of any kind, I just happen to feel that spanking is quite intimate.

I am sure you have guessed by the picture I posted that my curiosity won out and I was indeed spanked in the social room. Of course, only Crimson Moon members were allowed in there so it was not as though this was offered to the public in general. The first public spanking I got was from a lovely man who had been wanting to play all day and evening on Friday. For several reasons it didn't work out. So when he asked me on Saturday evening I asked if he would mind spanking me in the social room.

Now there were several reasons for this. First of all everyone was in costume and having a great time in general so I didn't really want to go upstairs. Secondly, there were several people getting spanked right there and I would not be the only one. My last reason was the most important, I just had to give it a try.

So he sat down, put me over his knee and away we went. After a few moments he asked if he could lift my long skirt and I agreed. Panties were not an issue since I wore a one piece black lacy top that snapped at the crotch but left my bum completely exposed. It really was perfect and much more comfortable than a thong. But if I had been wearing panties they would have gone down.

He gave me a lovely hand spanking and I remember thinking to myself that I had been worried for nothing. People were very careful not to intrude on what we were doing but I was certainly aware that there were a great many people watching. When we finished I stood up, hugged him, and told him he would never be forgotten since he had given me my first public spanking. Lovely man that he was, he said he was honored.

I only had one other public spanking and it was a doozy!! It was getting late and there were only about 15-20 people in the social room chatting and just generally starting to wind down. One of the gentlemen in our group was dressed for Halloween as a gangster complete with a violin case for his implements. One of the women that I was fast becoming friends with suggested I play with him since he was a terrific spanker. Well, you don't have to tell me twice. He was most agreeable to playing and we decided right there in the social room would be great. He unloaded his cache of toys and I let him know the couple that were too thick and might break my skin.

He had me lean over one of the large round tables and asked if he could lift my skirt. Bet you can guess my answer! I got a terrific spanking with a number of implements and a lovely warm hand. He was a hard spanker which was fine with me, I was having the time of my life. He did have one toy I probably would not be comfortable using again. It was rubber and I wish I could draw it for you, it was quite unusual. It was sort of a paddle/strap. But it was a bit heavy and did some serious bruising which I am still dealing with. At one point he gave me quite a smack and one of the other women said, "Ouch I could feel that over here." However someone else observed that I was just fine since there was still a big grin on my face. That was absolutely true, I was loving it all. He was also one of the men that caned me, but he used two very short canes at the same time. Sort of like a spanko drummer. That was a wonderful sensation.

He and I talked throughout the spanking and I traded several laughing remarks with the table next to ours where a number of women were sitting and chatting. Honestly, I felt no embarrassment at all. This totally surprised me because of my body image issues. Although I will say this, I would not ever want to be publicly punished. That is far too intimate and personal. But for play I would never hesitate to be publicly spanked.

Now standing in a corner with a red bottom on display is a whole different story and fortunately I don't have one of those to tell about. If I am lucky I never, ever will.

Meme from New Beginnings

This one has been sent to me by lots of my friends on the internet but I had not thought of posting it here until I saw it at New Beginnings.

4 THINGS YOU MAY NOT KNOW ABOUT ME


Four jobs I have had in my life:

Elementary School Teacher
University Instructor
Waitress
Stock Room Clerk

Four movies I have seen more than once:
Somewhere in Time
Beautiful Mind
The Stand
Rosemary's Baby

Four places I have lived:
Chicago suburbs
Northern Illinois rural college town
Northern Illinois extremely small town, less than 600 people
Central Illinois college town

Four Shows that I watch (not necessarily regularly)
Law and Order
Ghost Whisperer
Moonlight
Turner Classic Movies

Four places I have been:
New York
San Francisco
New Orleans
Orlando

Four People who e-mail me (regularly):
Karen
Diane
Clive
John

Four of my favorite foods:
chocolate
halavah
fresh or steamed vegetables
mushroom barley soup

Four places I would rather be right now.

over my partner's knee
cuddling
at a spanking party
Canada

Four friends I think will respond
Not sure but I would love it if some of my blogging friends would

Four things Iam looking forward to this year
Seeing my "older brother" again
Going to another party
Being able to once again be gainfully employed
Being with my partner


Ok now I would like to add a few of my own questions

Four implements I love
my purple paddle
my new purple flogger
my lexan cane
my strap

Four positons I love to be spanked in
OTK
over pillows on a bed
over the back of a well cushioned chair
over a table

Four other spanking related experiences I enjoy
restraint(not heavy bondage)
nipple clamps
sensation play
erotic massage

I do hope some of you get the chance to answer this as well and many thanks PK for posting it.

Prayer for Today